Hey there!

I'm L.K. The HorrorNerd, but you also know me as Lorelei aka Rory (yes cue the Gilmore Girls references LOL) and today, I'm reaching out to talk to you about some upcoming things happening.

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Who Am I?

Updates/Receipts, etc. Here:

Hey, so this section focuses on any and all updates you will get here, letting you know where the funds will go towards once goals are completed/announced, and I'll share receipts, photos, short videos, etc. for transparency purposes. Thank you again for all your support, and I appreciate you all!

Summer Tour Updates:

This section will focus on sharing updates and announcements regarding the plans for The New England Summer Nightmare Tour, due to recent concerns expressed by not just myself but my studio crew as well, trying to figure out some options on how to get what we need done and work on getting b-roll footage while filming for several different YouTube videos, including Episode 5 of After Dark with L.K. The HorrorNerd.With these updates/announcements, it'll make it easier to recognize any potential setbacks, figure out where it's best to film and focus on various projects and making sure that everything goes smoothly with little to no issues during the tour this summer, but also keeping the safety and well-being of everyone involved in mind at the same time. Having said that, let's get into these updates, shall we?

Tour Schedule (So Far):

NOTE: NYC will have multiple trips throughout the summer to try to finish all of NYC for both YouTube channels, including getting the footage needed for Episode Five of After Dark with L.K. The HorrorNerd while the rest of the tour stops/locations will happen from late May (May 30th) to September 10th, 2025. Some of the tour stops/locations will last at least one to two days, while other tour stops/locations will last a few hours to film, but a few will last more than 3-ish days or a week, depending on plans and what's needed for the YouTube videos currently in production. Expect changes/updates to be posted here in the weeks to come.

The Short Version of Why I'm Requesting Mutual Aid

So the short version is this:I'm doing this because not only I am still working towards trying to finish my townhouse renovations and finally get back on track to improving my quality of life as a disabled person (due to a recent sinus surgery that finally made it easier for me to breathe much better, thus allowing me to start working towards exercising and moving around better again), but I wanted to be able to afford to treat myself for a long time now for my birthday month since I was not able to really do much in the last few years.Granted, while it's been well-documented on Instagram, YouTube and other official social media platforms of mine that I got to go do things that was at least cheaper and affordable enough on a extremely tight budget, it was because I had to pay all my bills, rent, utilities, my medications, etc. BEFORE I could check to see what's left of my money to do anything fun. And in the last few years during Spooky Season, I only had at least $200-$400 leftover to save for myself to do some fun things on a strict budget and put a little aside to be prepared for any potential emergency expenses, so in reality, I only really have $250 left to spend during my entire birthday month. And my grocery budget sucks every year, especially with a part-time job or whatever odd jobs I'm on at the time and my EBT benefits amount always changing every twice a year or every once a year, depending on what they feel like doing at the time.But THIS YEAR, I have a emotional support cat to think about, my medical cannabis prescription that's covered mostly by insurance (but still have to pay a co-pay for it) and other bills/expenses that I plan on reducing and changing for good later this Fall/Winter season after November 1st, 2025, so I'm hoping to get some help with these bills, rent, utilities, etc. and to make sure my cat's needs are taken care of so that I can fully treat myself for the ENTIRE MONTH of October from the 1st to the 31st, and to be able to go to New York City from September 24th to September 29th for a full fun week with my friends there.A good friend/mutual said to me recently after sending me $60 via Venmo with a comment that says: "In case there's something you WANT and not just NEED" with a hug emoji and all that, and then later on adding to that comment with this statement: "Friend, wants are just as valid as needs and you deserve to live, not just survive." - I gotta admit, I freaking bawled my eyes out right there and then. That's why I wanna be able to relax better, stress less and have a lot of fun this Spooky Season, and create a lot of wonderful, meaningful memories that'll last forever not just for my YouTube channel and my Instagram page and my Neptune page, etc., but just for me too because I haven't been able to TRULY afford to treat myself fully in years, not even during my birthday or my entire birthday month of October every year. It's my favorite time of the year, my favorite season of the year and I freaking love Halloween.

Allow me to explain how to help me achieve these goals and help with these mutual aid requests step by step:

Now for the Longer Version of Why I'm Requesting Mutual Aid...

I want to be ABSOLUTELY CLEAR about ONE THING HERE:I am NOT BETTER THAN ANYONE and I'm not writing about this long version of why I'm requesting ongoing mutual aid for some of the goals and temporary mutual aid for other goals to make it sound like it's a "pity party" or whatever you wanna think. I'm writing because I want absolutely 100% HONESTY AND TRANSPARENCY so you know where I've been, what I've lived through and allowing me to recognize that I'm not the only one in the world who has problems and living with said problems and that everyone else has problems too, and that everyone else should be able to get mutual aid support too, because I believe we all are equally deserving of making sure that we all get said mutual aid support in our various communities. There should be NO HATE, NO DIVISION and DO NOT PRIORITIZE WHITE PEOPLE'S MUTUAL AID REQUESTS, REGARDLESS IF THEY ARE CIS, STRAIGHT, GAY, BISEXUAL, LESBIAN, TRANS, NON-BINARY, DISABLED, ETC. Try to prioritize Black and Indigenous people's mutual aid requests first as much as you can, and get to me and other people's mutual aid requests when you can, but don't overdo it if you can't afford it. While $1 each person is fine, or even subscribing at $1 a month to my Patreon is fine, etc., it's best to make sure that everyone's needs are met, and that we're all in this together, because mutual aid networks is more than just about financial support. For example, if you have supplies, items, equipment or things that I need that you are able to give away for free and ship it to me, then great. That's awesome. That's another form of mutual aid that you can partake in, by shipping things you might not need anymore or shipping extra spares that you already have and whatnot. Speaking of shipping things to help out people, PLEASE DM ME DIRECTLY VIA INSTAGRAM OR OTHER SOCIALS THAT ALLOWS FOR DM MESSAGING, INCLUDING DISCORD, ETC. TO ASK FOR MY MAILING ADDRESS PRIVATELY AS I HAVE NOT SET UP A P.O. BOX YET BUT WILL DO SO SOON. THANK YOU.

As I said previously, this has been a long time coming. And I mean a LONG TIME COMING. I've worked hard the majority of my teenage years and adult life, and I'm almost 37 years old this Fall/Spooky Season as of 10/26/2025. My body isn't what it used to be anymore, and my health issues is at a point where I'm trying to keep it stabilized and not be borderline or too severe that I'd need last-minute emergency surgeries of any type. I also recently became diabetic as of Summer/Fall 2024, so it hasn't been a very easy journey for me to adapt and make huge changes in my lifestyle, the way I eat, live, work, etc., and certainly took a really long time to even stabilize everything else in my life professionally and personally after having been homeless/unhoused for more than 10+ years, traveling the roads everywhere in America and in some countries, working any and all jobs that I could find available, from oil rigs to fishing boats, from being an background actress to working retail, from stocking and bagging groceries to sex work and even trying to make ends meet as a content creator, writer, poet, filmmaker/director/producer/actress/screenwriter, comedian, gamer/streamer, etc. for a VERY LONG TIME now. And I lost my home in late 2009 mostly due to the financial crisis that caused the Great Recession, but also due to healthcare coverage that didn't exactly cover everything my late daughter needed before she passed away from leukemia. That kind of financial stress basically put me out on the streets, losing my home, packing everything I could be allowed to take with me into a van and traveled as far away as I could, having taken a lot of time to grieve the tragedies and losses in my life that year.Since then, I've worked 50 times, if not, 100 times as harder trying to get back into stable housing, being put on waitlists that took forever in only 3 states, since I fell in love with one state that I visited and wanted to move and live there forever, and by December 2019 after being in California for awhile, it took one phone call to let me know that housing was finally available. Ironically, this would be on the cusp of the early days of the COVID-19 pandemic before everything was officially declared as a pandemic in America (thanks a lot, Trump for taking too damn long - yeah, we still FUCKING BLAME YOU, and I still never voted for you not even in 2016 and never voted for you in 2020 and certainly not even in 2024, so do us all a Fucking favor and die already - sorry for the brief off-track mini ranting there for a moment... anyway...), so by March 2020, by the time I had officially landed in Vermont and waited about 3 months in a hotel to get settled down into my first 1 bedroom apartment, I was someone who had lost two small businesses, went back on disability, collected stimulus and PUA checks because of the fact that I was not allowed to work for nearly 2 years due to a pandemic that is still ongoing, by the way, and no one hiring during those two years, it took even longer to keep looking for work, especially as content creation, gaming, streaming, YouTube, etc. was not where I wanted it to be yet, and I still hadn't qualified for Twitch Partner or YouTube Partner, and then by July 2022, the same weekend as the 4th of July, I was getting ready to move into a bigger place, a townhouse near a quiet beautiful ski resort town and of course, at the same time, getting my breast augmentation surgery that weekend as I was one step closer to finishing a long and grueling gender transition journey to finally be my true authentic and happy self.I overcame a lot of struggles, health issues, an ongoing pandemic that is not over, only got sick from COVID ONLY ONCE in late 2024, survived 2 MAJOR floods in Vermont that made it difficult for me to renovate my townhouse that I've been living in since July 2022, and of course, I'd also endured the SAG-AFTRA/WGA strikes in 2023 that made it harder for me to get work as an actress/filmmaker/director/producer/screenwriter.However, my entire life has been nothing but overcoming adversaries. I overcame a malignant thyroid cancer that was supposed to end my life in 2019 had I not gotten the surgery in September 2018. I overcame homelessness in America and kept traveling so that I wouldn't get killed by transphobes on the streets and avoided people for as long as I could. I overcame an violently transphobic and ableist Deaf community full of Deaf white cishet Elitists that kept saying I was not "trans enough" or not "deaf enough" my entire life having been in Mainstream schools and a Deaf school in Texas back then in my youth. I overcame the loss of my greatest love, my first and only wife and the loss of my late daughter. I overcame Hurricane Katrina and stayed behind to help my uncle rebuild what he lost. I overcame sexual/physical/domestic/emotional/mental, etc. violence, years of being misdiagnosed in a broken healthcare AND mental healthcare system until I met a wonderful team of doctors, surgeons, specialists, a therapist and so forth that finally got everything accurate and made my life so much better here in Vermont (thank you... truly, y'all saved me, especially my primary care doctor, who is a trans woman and my therapist, who is also a trans woman - it's Fucking awesome to have trans people on my healthcare team), and I survived so many shitty ex-boyfriends and ex-girlfriends who was just straight up fucking abusive.And I'm still here. I'm still alive. I'm still me. I'm still grateful for every day that I got to breathe. And I saw all my friends die and fade away over the years. I had to endure losing my grandfather, my mother's father, on Mother's Day 2022 and it broke my mother's heart. I was supposed to see him that summer and had I known that phone call I had with him several weeks before he died was the last time I would talk to him, and had I known prior to 2019 was the last time that I'd see him... I would've gone down sooner to Texas to see him one last time before he goes. And sadly, it was too late. Regardless, I survived it all and I'm still here.But I paid a price. I paid with my health. My mental health. My physical well-being. Now, I'm trying to get it all back, rebuild what I lost over the years and finally finish what I started originally so that I can move forward to work on new projects, new films, new content and more. I'm so behind on a lot of things that should've been finished years ago, months ago... hell, decades ago. And sadly, financial instability, a Great Recession, climate change, homelessness, being abused, more climate change, traumatizing elections in 2016 and 2024, actors/writers' strikes, not enough community support, etc. took forever and a day to finally try to catch up on many things I needed to finish.For example, here's the list of things, projects, etc. that I was supposed to finish within the last 5-10 years and of course, the last 10-20 years:

So as you can see, there's a lot of work that I've been trying to finish and a lot of things I wanted to get done for years now and a lot of projects that I wanted to retire so that I can focus on newer and more exciting projects that I just started, but at the same time, finally be able to improve my quality of life as a disabled person, especially a diabetic deaf-blind person, fix up my current townhouse to be better than ever after enduring damage and flooding due to climate change the last few years, stabilize my health after the remaining surgeries needed to be done, have financial stability and get out of poverty for good. Don't get me wrong; being on disability, EBT benefits, etc. - it has helped me a LOT over the years, but in this day and age, especially more now than ever before during Trump's Nazi Regime over America, the future is very uncertain, scary and could be dangerous if the checks and balances are starting to finally be broken and the last lines of defense against fascism make it harder for me to not just survive but finally thrive and live a better life again.So it's more critical, more important now than ever before, not just as a deaf-blind disabled person who happens to be AuDHD/neurodivergent, etc., but as a nonbinary trans woman who wants to finally finish her nearly 30-plus year gender transition and be her true authentic happy self, but also to be able to live long enough to overcome fascism, leave behind a lasting legacy of community mutual aid networks to help others in need going forward and to leave behind a collection of creative works that will last for generations to come, to be remembered and to share these creative works before I leave.And the best ways to do that, at least currently, is supporting me directly via Ko-Fi, Twitch and Patreon on a MONTHLY CONSISTENT BASIS nonstop and introducing those platforms to your friends, coworkers, colleagues, allies, other community members, etc. to see if they'd be able to support me monthly as well. And during that time, while building a stable-ish monthly income on all three platforms (preferably Patreon), keep pushing my YouTube channels FOR FREE to get the algorithm to finally recognize my channels as view-worthy and hopefully introducing said channels to new people to a point where my watch hours are gonna meet the requirements needed to qualify for YouTube Partnership, all while trying to reach the first 500 and then the first 1,000 subscribers on said YouTube channels that will also be required for YouTube Partnership, thus unlocking everything from YouTube Memberships to Supers to even the fabled YouTube ad revenue and more. Once completed, that's when I'll make major changes, updates, announcements, etc. to finally consolidate everything into YouTube, Discord, Neptune and MAYBE Patreon as chances are, I'll probably be leaving Twitch since it's getting harder to become Twitch Partner or even Twitch Partner Plus. But if by some luck somehow, I manage to become Twitch Partner or Partner Plus, I'll keep the Twitch platform for a while longer until otherwise stated.I'm hoping to finally get to a point in my life by the time that I'm 40 years old in 3 years, that I'd be healthy, safe, stable and alive. If not... well... at least I tried. But I wanna do this now, and not when it's too late. So I hope you'll show up. But more importantly, I want you to know that I acknowledge all of you who shows up, who's been there for me since DAY ONE and who's been supportive of me so far, and I hope we can get a lot farther together than ever before.You have no idea how eternally grateful I am to every single one of you. Truly. You have changed my life for the better, so thank you. Keep it up and I'll see you down the road with new updates, sharing receipts and photos here whenever I can and more. I will continue to be transparent, to be as honest as possible with everything that goes on and to show you where everything you funded is going towards. Thank you again for everything, and I'll see you again soon.Sincerely and Eternally Grateful,
Lorelei
aka Rory
aka L.K. The HorrorNerd
aka The Millennial Granny Gamer
Pronouns: She/They